Hello Everyone,
Sometimes we can be in a hard place and feel like we work so hard for nothing, or we continually have to watch people get what their heart desires, mean while our hearts desire never comes true. I see so many ladies complain about things their husbands do everyday that gets on their nerves and on the inside I am physically aching and longing for my husband whom I've never met and I don't even know if there is one for me. I have never wanted to share about this because it's an honest and deep hurt that only Jesus sees. Why would I care so much to be married? Well I would love to find what all of you take for granted every day. I would love to pick up laundry that was left out by my husband because, he was tired after work. I would love for my daughter to have a step dad that is a true dad to her. She prays for him every night. I would love to have a real life, life partner to make decisions with and not always have to do things alone. I would love to not have to carry the whole house of mine on my shoulders alone. Yes, I have Jesus and I ache the same way to be with him in the secret place everyday. or I pray that my ache would turn this deep to be with him. I am learning to fall head over heals in love with Jesus. But there is still this part of me that longs to be a home maker. A stay at home mom. One that keeps everything in order and a house well kept. I was made for that. So I know that God collects all of my tears and reads each one. But, I pray that one day. I get what gets on your nerves so bad at the end of the day. While you stay annoyed with what you have, there are some who would love to be in your shoes but we are the ones who are always looked past. always kept as a friend. and always left. So give thanks for what you do have and stop being ungrateful. A time will come when you pray that things would change. I pray that right now you would pray that the Lord would change you into who you are praying for. I let the Lord do that to me and I got left with Jesus himself because I was praying for that the whole time. No person could love me better than the one whom created me. I have to love him first before I can ever even try to love someone else. It might seem sad if you're reading this from the outside looking in and sometimes it is. Most days its refreshing to know that I am making myself ready for the Lord's return to his Bride. He loves you all the same. I pray that as you read through my hearts true ache that you would find something to be thankful for. Especially if its something you take for granted. I am so thankful for each person in my life. They have led me to know Jesus in a different way. This may seem like a rant, but I promise it's written from a deep place of love. Love that Jesus himself deposited inside of me. Take a moment and reflect on all the things you can't stand. Write them out on note cards. Light them on fire, and walk away. Then on brand new note cards right everything that is lovely, noble, and pure and think on these things. Jesus made you brand new why still live with yesterday? His mercies are new every morning for you. They should be for your spouse as well. Only Jesus can take away the stain of yesterday, I pray as you read this that his goodness would flow over you and you would allow him to remove the stain or chains that have kept you bound to old mindsets and emotions that aren't yours to carry.
Love you all,
Jordyn
Lyrics
Sometimes we can be in a hard place and feel like we work so hard for nothing, or we continually have to watch people get what their heart desires, mean while our hearts desire never comes true. I see so many ladies complain about things their husbands do everyday that gets on their nerves and on the inside I am physically aching and longing for my husband whom I've never met and I don't even know if there is one for me. I have never wanted to share about this because it's an honest and deep hurt that only Jesus sees. Why would I care so much to be married? Well I would love to find what all of you take for granted every day. I would love to pick up laundry that was left out by my husband because, he was tired after work. I would love for my daughter to have a step dad that is a true dad to her. She prays for him every night. I would love to have a real life, life partner to make decisions with and not always have to do things alone. I would love to not have to carry the whole house of mine on my shoulders alone. Yes, I have Jesus and I ache the same way to be with him in the secret place everyday. or I pray that my ache would turn this deep to be with him. I am learning to fall head over heals in love with Jesus. But there is still this part of me that longs to be a home maker. A stay at home mom. One that keeps everything in order and a house well kept. I was made for that. So I know that God collects all of my tears and reads each one. But, I pray that one day. I get what gets on your nerves so bad at the end of the day. While you stay annoyed with what you have, there are some who would love to be in your shoes but we are the ones who are always looked past. always kept as a friend. and always left. So give thanks for what you do have and stop being ungrateful. A time will come when you pray that things would change. I pray that right now you would pray that the Lord would change you into who you are praying for. I let the Lord do that to me and I got left with Jesus himself because I was praying for that the whole time. No person could love me better than the one whom created me. I have to love him first before I can ever even try to love someone else. It might seem sad if you're reading this from the outside looking in and sometimes it is. Most days its refreshing to know that I am making myself ready for the Lord's return to his Bride. He loves you all the same. I pray that as you read through my hearts true ache that you would find something to be thankful for. Especially if its something you take for granted. I am so thankful for each person in my life. They have led me to know Jesus in a different way. This may seem like a rant, but I promise it's written from a deep place of love. Love that Jesus himself deposited inside of me. Take a moment and reflect on all the things you can't stand. Write them out on note cards. Light them on fire, and walk away. Then on brand new note cards right everything that is lovely, noble, and pure and think on these things. Jesus made you brand new why still live with yesterday? His mercies are new every morning for you. They should be for your spouse as well. Only Jesus can take away the stain of yesterday, I pray as you read this that his goodness would flow over you and you would allow him to remove the stain or chains that have kept you bound to old mindsets and emotions that aren't yours to carry.
Love you all,
Jordyn
Lyrics
Why should I feel discouraged
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart feel lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion
Why should the shadows come
Why should my heart feel lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is he
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
I know he watches
I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
He watches me
He watches me, I never thought...
He watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
I know he watches
I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
He watches me
He watches me, I never thought...
He watches me
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